It started quietly and without her looking for it, but the aftershock was profound ten years ago, rachel had an affair it spiralled out of control and left her and her life in pieces now, writing at her window, she tries to put those pieces back together she has her memories, recollections of dreams, and her old yellow notebook more than anything, she wants to be honest she knows that her memory is patchy and her notebook incomplete but there is something else something terrible happened to her lover her account is hypnotic, delicate, disquieting and bold but is she telling us the truth